Basically I’m doubting my feelings for my partner constantly. When I’m not FaceTiming him we’re (LDR) I miss him and think of him, then when I FaceTime him the doubts start coming in and I just notice all of his physical traits and analyze them. I focus on his ear his nostrils, it’s weird. Anyhow, I was watching a prank video on YouTube with guys on our campus here, and I liked this one guys reaction and thought it was cool then my mind was like damn he could get it and I had to keep replaying it because for a second I enjoyed it. I felt attracted to his confidence and assholeness in the video. I finally rewatched it for the last time hoping I wouldn’t feel anything. I then imagined a sexual image with him and felt horrible :( am I really just getting over my partner ?
I called him back after I woke up and I asked him who the girl was but I immediately knew it wasn’t real, but the dream had felt so real. He was writing a follow up email to a recruiter for a new job and since it’s a girl he was making jokes that knows bothers me (it’s our inside joke). Then he hangs up cuz the recruiter calls him and I’m on FaceTime on his laptop, and she sounds young and I immediately start thinking they would go good together and why he was making those jokes, and he started pretending to lick the phone as if it was her and laughing cuz he knew how much it was pissing me off. And that just really hurt me and made things worse and honestly I just feel like I want to break up with him because of it. He knows I have morning depression and anxiety so he doesn’t really take me seriously. What do I do?